Brighter Days

2 Corinthians 12:9 (New International Version)
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.



Thank you so much for the kind words and prayers after my last post. I can truly feel your prayers working. Thank you Jenn, for reminding me that we don't always see how we are affecting someone in the present for their future lives. I love having blog friends who care enough to lift me up when I am down. I hope I do the same for you.




I've been having a hard time keeping my focus on God lately. I'm not totally sure why that is. It feels as though I'm trying to see Him through a fog and I'm not sure what's holding me back. I know that He is there, thankfully. I remember a time when I didn't...it makes me shudder to think of that time in my life. I am beginning to get my focus back though. I woke up with a praise song in my head both yesterday and today. Hallelujah! That is actually one of the ways I can tell that I'm doing better.




Routine probably has something to do with why I've been struggling. When I'm off work, I have a tendency to stay up late and sleep late. Instead of planning things to do, I find myself getting bored. I also miss the routine of work, in general (and I miss the kids!). So I was happy to be back at work yesterday.




Another thing that seems to get me sidetracked is the absence of praise and worship music during the Christmas season. Music is the primary way that I hear the Lord speaking to me. And for some reason, Christmas music doesn't always do the same thing for me, even though it is a type of praise music. I miss terribly the music that speaks of our heartache and how God heals that heartache. I love Christmas music, but I'm so glad the radio is back to playing the music that speaks most to my heart. So I guess the Christmas season had me down the way it gets a lot of people down.



Now I'm looking forward to a new year. I kind of used my illness over the holiday to jump start me into eating better. I couldn't eat for a few days really, and once I was well my appetite wasn't as large. Since then I have been more motivated than I have been in a very long time to take better care of my body. That is a blessing in an of itself!



So things are definitely better and I'm very thankful. His grace is sufficient!